Betrayal after trust

supposedly, there is a natural order of direction to all things in existence.
and if you want to move forward, there is only one path which you can take.

right to left
down to up
anti clockwise to clockwise

is the wrong way.

right to left
down to up
anticlockwise to clockwise

has been our way.

fuck me and then love me

is your way

Birthday Notes

in my dreams, I painted a picture of Saskia...
she was holding a green tea ice cream, standing outside of Odakyu

passerbys would glace at her, and be reminded of their daughters..
until she cheekily winked back at them through her rose coloured sunglasses.

did they see her?
she didnt know...
pehaps they did - but it never mattered to her anyway, because who she is today, may not even resemble who she choose to be tomorrow...

although she is a catalyst, secretly she is a follower...following her intuitions...like Katherine from Wuthering Heights.

She will play "hide & seek" with me - spinning me away from my existential dilemmas...

she is a free spirit...impossible to articulate in precise words...but she makes it impossible for me to not want to try.

xx to saskia

If I were your winter sundae & cherry, then you were the sprinkles of my summer...